Torment (a poem about living with OCD)

As you may have guessed by the title of this post I have OCD. I have written a poem to explain to those who luckily don’t suffer from this, how it feels to live with OCD.
My form of OCD is to check things. I check doors, plug sockets etc about a million times before I’m satisfied that it is safe to leave them. I have managed to learn how to control these behaviours over the years, but I still have some days when the urge to check everything numerous times raises it’s ugly head.

My mind is conspiring against me
It is a daily battle
One I must face alone

My mind she taunts me
Making me doubt myself
I am trapped by her

She questions my every move
Until she drives me to the brink of madness
Like a petulant child

I call to my inner wise woman
In a bid to calm her tantrums
At times she prevails

The child is hushed now
But I know this is only a lull
Before the impending storm that threatens to rage
©2014 Victoria Tucker

No one should ever be embarrassed or ashamed about having OCD. It comes from a deep rooted need to protect and care about others and is born out of a fear that something you may neglect to do may cause someone harm. For me it is the fear of leaving something on like the iron and the potential it has to cause a fire and ruin my family’s lives. For others it is the need to clean out of a fear of germs. Just know that you are not alone and that some of the nicest, caring people you will ever meet are OCD sufferers xx

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Tea Light Jars

I got this idea from a friend of mine who has made a large number of these as lighting for her summer wedding. I washed out some old jars I had (I like the small Doritos salsa dip jars as I think they look cute) and then wrapped some twine around the jar. I have attached hearts & flower shapes to the jars that I have made from salt dough (recipe below). I then filled with coffee beans (you could fill with whatever you fancy pebbles, sand etc) and a lovely scented candle (velvet amber) that I got from Sainsbury’s. The coffee beans warm up when the candle is lit and combined they give off a lovely scent
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Salt Dough Recipe

it doesn’t really matter too much about precise weights as long as you stick to the principle of one, half, half e.g.

1 cup flour

1/2 cup salt

1/2 cup cold water

mix all ingredients into a bowl and kneed until dough is soft and pliable

roll out onto a floured surface to approx. 1/8″ thick

cut into shapes

using a straw make holes to be able to thread them onto your twine

you can now leave to dry for 48 hours or bake in the oven on a cookie sheet covered with parchment paper for 2 hours at 220 f

let your shapes cool completely before painting them

I like to give mine a coat of pva glue once dried to stop them from cracking

 

happy making x

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Wonderful world of TUT

I want to tell you all about tut.com. And their daily emails from the universe. I discovered this service after seeing vine star jessi smiles upload one of her messages to Instagram. The message was so uplifting and inspiring that I signed up for mine immediately. Every week day (not weekends) I get an inspirational email from the universe. It always makes me smile and sometimes makes me chuckle aloud. Here are some of my favourite messages.

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Sign up at http://www.tut.com it’s totally free

Be inspired every day and know that you are loved
Hooray!!
Vicki & The Universe xx

Beautiful inspiration

I’ve been working on a few writing projects at the moment, and I was having a bit of a mental block. I decided a walk with the dog, fresh air and the sunshine would aid inspiration. On our walk in the park I came across lots of lovely colourful flowers. Their beauty has helped to kick start my creative juices flowing again, so I thought I’d share them with you.

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Chepstow Castle

It was half term this week and so we took the only dry day to visit Chepstow Castle. The sun was shining in glorious Wales and the castle was beautiful. it was a lovely day out and I would definitely recommend giving Chepstow castle a visit. I also found out  you can take dogs around the grounds as long as they are on a lead, so I may have to take another visit with my pooch.

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Beautiful Windows in the Great Tower

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The main gatehouse

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The Upper Barbican

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The Lower Bailey & Marten’s Tower

 

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Every castle needs a spooky cellar!

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These castle doors are the oldest surviving original castle doors in Europe over 800 years old.